I go through it, but he thinks because he is not beating me or choking me it’s not r***

He is not deprived we had sex every day… but if there were times I was on my period or had a miscarriage/ dnc he’d want to anyway when I was saying no over and over…. I’d be holding my pants up and of course he wouldn’t stop… now it’s got to the point where he took the good feeling away from sex for me.

My personal opinion would be to leave. That’s very disturbing and disgusting because it’s definitely what you’re saying it is. Just because there’s no violence doesn’t mean anything, you told him no and that should be the end of it. He has no respect for you. Like you’ve literally tried holding your pants up because you didn’t want too and he still made you… I would strongly strongly suggested getting out